Wedding flowers!!

the beautiful colors of our wedding in 222 days! 

(taken with cellphone)

Something Beautiful -- Newsboys

I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
I want a new beginning

One without an end

I feel it inside
Calling out to me

It's a voice that whispers my name

It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful

I've heard it in the silence

Seen it on a face
I've felt it in a long hour
Like a sweet embrace
I know this is true
It's calling out to me

It's a voice that whispers my name

It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful

It's the child on her wedding day

It's the daddy that gives her away
Something beautiful
When we laugh so hard we cry
It's the love between you and I
Something beautiful

Wedding To-dos.

::Flowers and decorations
::DJ
::Live Music
::Song lists
::Engagement photos
::Photobooth?
::Invitations/Programs [save the dates!]
::Rings & insurance
::Cake
::Rehearsal dinner
::Accommodations for guests and pastor
::Gift registries
::Bridal party gifts
::Wedding favors - trial run

Church and Reception Hall.

Posted the pictures backwards.

The reception is at Baker Lofts Event Center.

We are getting married at Harderwyk Ministries. Less then 8 months!

Here comes the bride!

Our escape to the reception!

ceremony decor

I love everything about the baby's breath in these photos.

Credit given to Amy Carroll photography. http://www.acarrollphotography.com/

Credit given to Dan Stewart photography. http://danstewartphotography.com/

weary.

I am tired today. My feet have been dragging and my apartment is a disaster zone. I have no motivation to give away the piles of goodwill stuff that have been sitting here forever. No motivation to do anything else other than exist today. I was on a go-go-go kick before Montana, wanting to get things done and keep in contact with people. But since the trip, I have slowly deteriorated and I feel like I am treading water, not going anywhere, not doing anything, just treading away. I am hungry for fellowship, for a connection with a church and a congregation but I watch each Sunday pass me by. I desire to feel revived and renewed. To be healthy and energetic. I want to fall asleep next to Nick every night and to be able to see each other as husband and wife. Not just, I have time to come into town for two days and then it's back to separation. I know I shouldn't complain, there are husbands and wives who go days, weeks, months apart from one another. Military men and women leave there spouses and families behind every day. But I desire to be married and live a life as husband and wife. So many things that I want but am I thankful for what I have? For the fellowship of friends and family I already have? For a God that exists in my heart, who knocks at my door until I am ready for him to come in. To live in a place where I can feel safe talking about God or blogging about God for that matter. To be at a point in my life where I am marrying my best friend and lover. To have a job that pays the bills and puts a roof over my head. Not enough do I thank God for doing what he is doing in my life. Not enough do I allow myself to hear him nor do I open up my heart in prayer to him. He's waiting for me to be vulnerable to him. Waiting so that he can speak into my life and give me breath. Waiting to show me endless love. To give me the gifts of strength and peace on days like today. I pray that I can open up my heart to Him once again as His child. I pray that I remember to be thankful and to be confident in the things He has provided me.

dress in my closet.

This gushiness started with me watching P.S. I Love You tonight which lead to trying on my wedding shoes again.....and my dress :)

We have hit the 8th month mark, I know it's not quite the 6th, but it's the 8th!! :)

I have 8 more months to play my Ingrid Michaelson, Peggy Lee, and Carrie Underwood Pandora as loud as I want! 8 more months of hogging the whole bed, sleeping with 5 pillows, and taking up the entire bathroom counter. 8 more months of filling the entryway shoe rack with unnecessary shoes and watching P.S. I Love You as much as I want. But, I am so ready for these next 8 months to fly by. I am so eager to be married to my best friend. To battle over Peggy Lee Pandora or the Xbox 360. To cuddle with my husband and not 5 different pillows. To throw out shoes that haven't stepped outside the apartment since they were carried into it. And so I may have to throw a few suspense, action movies in...I can still sneak in my chick flicks every now and then. It'll be worth it. To come home to the man I love everyday. I know there will be stress, but I'm not worried about it, because this is my fairytale, our fairytale and I can't wait to marry my best friend in 8 months. To see him at the end of that aisle and know that that moment will be the first moment of the rest of our lives together as husband and wife. :)

Sweet dreams <3